Hi, I’m Amy. Soul Healer. Living a Joy Guided Journey.
But I haven’t always lived this way.
In 2013, on a Friday afternoon, my doctor told me I might have breast cancer. At first I was excited. Crazy, I know, yet I knew my upcoming journey would radically change my life for the better and I reveled in the possibilities.
But Monday morning, when the doctor called to confirm I had cancer, I suddenly shifted from feeling excited to terrified.
“Oh my God!” I thought, “I have CANCER? What? How did this happen? WHAT???”
An insidious thought started taking root in my head. Words that said, “How can I be a worthy healer if I’m SICK…with CANCER? No one’s going to trust my work if I tell them. How did I let this happen? What the $%#&* do I do now?!”
And then I started hearing disheartening comments from other people. Mostly:
“You would never have gotten cancer if you ate the right foods!”
I felt like shame was hunting me down.
The inner dialogue became a heavily guarded secret. I felt ashamed of having cancer and the words, “I should have known better,” became my constant mantra.
Fortunately for me, I am a healer, so I knew exactly what I needed to do next. I trusted my sleeping dreams, which told me I would need chemo and also what surgery I would need. I worked with a shamanic soul healer, did some deep healing work – including working with my sleeping dreams – and started to release the shame that was weighing me down.
The Gifts of My Cancer Healing Journey
This journey helped me wake up to significant sacrifices I was making to feel loved and a sense of belonging. Additionally, I had super high expectations for myself and lived from a secret fear of “getting it wrong” or “not being worthy.”
The biggest a-ha moment came when I realized I was so desperate to “get it right” that I was living by following the “expert’s advice.” For instance, I read all sorts of books and watched all sorts of videos on what to eat to heal cancer. I soon discovered, though, that there is NO scientific consensus. So I was left with one option that felt 100% true for me and my journey. I decided the best option for me was to live from my intuition, to trust myself to intuit what I needed and when I needed it. I call this my “joy guided journey” in which I say “yes” only to things that bring me joy.
This journey required (and still requires) that I confront and dismantle disempowering beliefs that are rooted in ancestral wounds (both literal ancestors and also cultural ancestors). For instance, I’ve liberated myself from the belief that women are only worthy when they put their needs last.
The good news is that anything can be healed – anything – through soul healing, mindfulness, and the trusting of intuition to lead us toward health and wholeness.
Yours in sisterhood,
“You helped me heal in an hour what I’ve been trying to heal for months and then some.”
Somewhere along the way I learned that life wasn’t a safe thing and that I had no business being here, despite my celebrated birth. During our session, a lot of the energetic confusion between me and others was cleared. Now there’s more room for me to discover who I actually am! I’ve felt much more aligned with my spiritual and intuitive selves since our session.