After two hours of waiting as a potential jury member, I finally heard the theme of the trial: alleged sexual abuse of a child.
My emotional and physical reaction was so strong. As I sat in that court room, I felt no judgment toward the accused, but a wave of extreme emotion washed over me for the countless women who have experienced sexual and emotional abuse.
Sadly, I know way too many women who have been sexually or emotionally abused. I also know several men who were perpetrators, including two clergy. One committed suicide after his congregation found out. The other was able to heal his troubling past after a long journey through shame, guilt and grief, only to have the media find out 30 years later and dredge up his story.
Hearing the jury theme shook me to the bone because I know what a lasting effect abuse of any kind can have on a person’s well being.
Trauma causes emotional blocks that get in our way
Trauma influences a woman’s ability to stand in her power.
It isn’t that she can’t be successful with this lingering wound, but the perpetual second guessing, constant self-doubt, feelings of unworthiness, and fear of being seen seem to be clear signs that something is amiss.
Sometimes these feelings are subtle, other times extreme. Regardless, a woman shouldn’t have to work so hard to make a little progress.
Getting caught up in a never ending cycle
What most people don’t understand is that the past trauma can put a person in a sort of cycle. The trauma victim feels the emotional impact of the original experience in current events, even if the current situation is nowhere near as traumatic as the initial situation.
But this type of trauma cannot be thought away, ignored or pushed aside.
You cannot tell someone to “get over it and move on already” because the trauma is literally locked in their cells and until they release the emotion, they will continue to experience the after effects of the trauma.
There is a scientific explanation for this. According to Dr. Mona Lisa Schultz, neuropsychiatrist and medical intuitive (paraphrased from Awakening Intuition, page 97-98)
Trauma increases levels of dissociation. This means that certain emotions and memories are split off; they lie in the body tissue or areas of the brain we can’t talk about.
You could be moving through a benign, non-threatening situation but your body perceives it as a threatening, traumatic situation making it just as traumatizing and stressful as the former experience.
So if you’re repetitively reliving and re-experiencing a traumatizing memory, two things happen: you begin to see the pattern of that memory everywhere and you re-create it in the present.>
Dr. Schultz’s work focuses on the correlation between traumatic memory and disease. I’ve noticed the same correlation with traumatic memory and lifework success.
Healing to reConnect with Your Purpose and Power
Over the past several months I’ve been working with a few clients on a new level.
In addition to guiding them on how to connect with their purpose, I’ve also been noticing the effects of spiritual (shamanic) healings on their ability to connect with their personal power.
So far the results are pretty impressive.
During the sessions, I worked with my clients to help them heal past traumas.
In some sessions, there was a lot of emotional clearing that helped my clients immediately feel more connected to their lives and bodies, or freer, as though they’d been released from restraints. This experience even resulted in powerful dreams that emphasized their renewed vigor.
In other sessions, we worked specifically with perpetrator energy, or the energetic imprint of any person who violated my clients’ mind, body or soul. Once the energy was removed, my clients reported feeling more empowered to take their work to the next level.
But this work isn’t just resulting in women feeling more empowered and having more clarity. Some are taking huge leaps, going way out of their comfort zone, and attracting new clients as a result.
Essentially what’s happening is that the spiritual healings are helping my clients access and release the trauma that has been hiding in their cells.
It’s truly exciting to witness the impact of these healings on their lifework and I’ll be sharing more of my findings as I progress.
To summarize today’s musings
Trauma, whether from abuse or any other means, gets lodged in cellular memory. This can influence a woman’s ability to stand in her power, but the good news is that this trauma can be healed. Once a layer is healed, a woman is often more comfortable in her skin and freer to do the work she loves.
Fortunately, we do not have to be perpetual victims of our past, but our past can be a pathway for deeper healing.